lace-ups; golden years

I want to say that the thought of stepping into this actual real live life that's been built for me since I started stumbling around trying to teach my legs to walk makes me feel

but tbh it doesn't feel like I'm jumping off a cliff, not a bit; it's more like I've been slowly wading into cold water all my life and now I'm finally realizing -

this is it, babe, this is it

the future or whatever